10/19/2008

That Damn Smile!!

I just admitted to myself that for the first time since Blondie, I've come as close to falling in love again as I will ever be. Yet, it is not to be. Which, I have to say is a good thing. Dude reminds me too much of Blondie - in the good ways. Blondie reminds me of my dad in so many good ways. His brilliance, his kindness, his eyes, his humor, that damn smile. 

I'm in love...but he doesn't love me.

Wonder if I'll ever have that connection with someone again?


9 Comments:

Blogger bluebaby said...

Hi Jenn,

You probably don't read check this blog anymore...but if you come across this comment I'd just like to say a big thanks for it. I'm going through a difficult break up now, where it seems like absolutely everything is in hands. It's good to know that there are others that have felt the exact same way I do...crying at the computer, break up playlists, freaking out when he comes online and using all my courage not to contact him when that's all I want to do.

So again thank you. I've tried the blog thing too to get get random thoughts off my chest so I can hopefully gain some perspective.

My Heartbroken Blog

10/14/2009 07:26:00 PM  
Blogger Jenn said...

Hey it's Jenn. Thanks for saying Hi! This blog was so cathartic for me and I've made so many friends from it who are going through the same lame heartache.

I'm so sorry to hear that you're one of us now...but I'm honored to know that I had a little part in helping you deal with it.

Keep blogging. It's one of the best things you can do now to get over him and move on.

10/15/2009 07:34:00 PM  
Blogger Rusty Fetzer said...

This blog seems to be therapeutic for you. If so, that's great. I'm usually very uninterested in accounts of off-again on-again relationships unless I can learn something for myself. Why am I interested in your blog? I don't know yet. Because of your anonymity, character development is very low. You seem to be a very accomplished verbal analyst too afraid to get on with a courageous life. Do you acknowledge your fixation on yourself? Gotta take a hold of some tough principles.

11/15/2009 07:11:00 PM  
Blogger Jenn said...

Hey Rusty!

Thanks for stopping by the blog. So...yes. I acknowledge my fixation on myself. At the time, it was the thing I needed to stay above water. And I'm so honored by all the people who've told me that they got over their breakup because of some of the experimental drivel that went on here at my blog.

Funny you say character development is low on the blog. I think my character is the thing that made this blog so attractive to readers. They got to hear my music, read my most intimate feelings, see me talking to others about it, learn my likes and dislikes, see my flaws and my apirations. You don't need a photo (or whatever you connect with transparency, as opposed to anonymity) to convey that kind of personal stuff. That's all in the being here and being honest. And that's what I was.

I hope you find something useful here. It's definitely not for everyone, but if you can stand my potty mouth and tears, you just might get a new perspective on things. I sure as hell did, and I wrote it!! ;-)

11/16/2009 09:49:00 PM  
Blogger the interim cynic said...

Jenn, I came across your blog today and read a great deal of your Blondie aftermath. What really stuck with me is this part you said "i began to wonder if the pain was a way for me to continue to feel connected to blondie. the pain had become familiar and was only about him. honestly, after a while i think writing about blondie became less healing, and more a way for me to keep a part of us alive." I'm going through the post breakup phase and was finding it difficult until I read that part. As I was keeping a blog of my own to record some of the chaos and pain, I suddenly realized that I could be doing the very same thing, just prolonging the process. It is healthy to get it out there and face your demons afterwards, but also know when to stop. I think my blog, which was a mix of short stories of my ex and I and my life, I think it will evolve now into me alone. So thank you for pointing out the obvious. It's time to let go and focus on me.
http://novemberheadspace.blogspot.com/

11/30/2009 08:32:00 PM  
Blogger Jenn said...

Hey november!

Thanks for wandering over to the blog. I'm really glad you picked up on that comment about the pain prolonging an emotional connection with blondie for me. It was lame, and I knew it. It just took some time to let it go. I hope this drivel helps you. All of you commenters helped me so much.

12/11/2009 11:17:00 PM  
Blogger hiphopretard said...

Your story moves me and is recognizable to me in so many levels. Should you want to, my sad story of woe can be read here: http://amoresiii-mystoryofwoe.blogspot.com/

4/29/2010 12:56:00 PM  
Blogger hiphopretard said...

I don't believe there is such a thing as "the one". There are many "the ones" out there. You'll find a new one. :)

4/29/2010 12:58:00 PM  
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