Oh Man! I Hope I Didn't Blow It : Pxxi - On Hold
sooo...my uk friend (let's call him SD for Sugar Daddy), emails me back this morning after his talk with the VP of this tech company. He put in a good word for me...he threatened not to buy this VP "any more drinks for the rest of his fucking miserable life" if he didn't hire me...but he could offer no guarantees...
and that's ok. i would kinda like to meet these people before i accept a job anyway.
so i send my cv to the VP...yes, a cv. i do not have a resume...cuz seriously, i started my first biz at 18 and just never took on a real JOB with a company...worked virtually, worked as a consultant, worked as a contractor, only in the office for 2 weeks at a time TOPS. and it's a fucking lot of work to do this, because if i am working with a client for just a project, then obviously it's gonna end...and i gotta find another client to replace him. so i whore myself out all the time for new clients...and i've gotten pretty good at training clients to bring me new clients for a little extra love on their project. and so i am always either a baller or starving...but ya gotta understand...this is my indie spirit talking, and i'm so ok with that. i live simple, and save up my $ till i can buy exactly the thing i want, so my shit is hella nice...but minimalist.
so anyway...i sent the VP my CV.
and even tho i re-read it before i sent it and made the necessary phone number changes and such, added an updated bio, and checked my work history, there was something i didn't catch until i sent it off...something right near the bottom of a paragraph...it said something like 'i would be honored to represent your company as an independent consultant...yada yada'...holy shit is THAT wrong!! the job SD was trying to get for me was a bit more...shall we say...low end. it is the exact thing that i do for clients now, but only in-house...which means project for project, an in-house employee makes about 3x less than i do and has a hella lot less respect from clients...but this is what i am applying for. why?? well...at the end of a year, that in-house worker and i end up making about the same amount...but mine looks so much better cuz sometimes i'll just have a bunch of clients for months in a row and i seriously am rolling naked in the dough. but then...there is ALWAYS the drought. and man, i am starving then. i used to look at my minimalist apartment and the art on the walls and think to myself, 'hey blondie has food in his fridge' and i trek my skinny arse over the 2 blocks to his house...fully seeing stars cuz i am in starvation mode...and then cook with him and eat enough for 2 men...always amazing blondie...hehe. but anyhoo...the low-end job...this is what i am applying for.
and i might have blown it cuz i didn't change that line in my CV.
damn...i don't want the VP to get scared off cuz he thinks i'm looking for a high end consulting job (i.e. a VP position), when really all i want is a specialist/worker bee job.
but i can't really email him back and say...ummm mr. vp? i uh didn't edit my CV very well before i sent it to you, so disregard the first one and just read this one updated especially for the worker bee job with your company, ok? best regards, jenn
shit...
and he hasn't emailed me back yet or called me so all that's left for me to do is
1)kick myself 2)pray that he misses that part 3)pray that he seriously thinks about a VP position for me, hahaha 4)just wait for him to call so that i can clarify the position i am contacting him about.
damn...oh well. i guess another thing i need to do is just keep whoring myself out for indie work...
sigh...
Playing now:
Castaways and Cutouts -- The Decemberists
and that's ok. i would kinda like to meet these people before i accept a job anyway.
so i send my cv to the VP...yes, a cv. i do not have a resume...cuz seriously, i started my first biz at 18 and just never took on a real JOB with a company...worked virtually, worked as a consultant, worked as a contractor, only in the office for 2 weeks at a time TOPS. and it's a fucking lot of work to do this, because if i am working with a client for just a project, then obviously it's gonna end...and i gotta find another client to replace him. so i whore myself out all the time for new clients...and i've gotten pretty good at training clients to bring me new clients for a little extra love on their project. and so i am always either a baller or starving...but ya gotta understand...this is my indie spirit talking, and i'm so ok with that. i live simple, and save up my $ till i can buy exactly the thing i want, so my shit is hella nice...but minimalist.
so anyway...i sent the VP my CV.
and even tho i re-read it before i sent it and made the necessary phone number changes and such, added an updated bio, and checked my work history, there was something i didn't catch until i sent it off...something right near the bottom of a paragraph...it said something like 'i would be honored to represent your company as an independent consultant...yada yada'...holy shit is THAT wrong!! the job SD was trying to get for me was a bit more...shall we say...low end. it is the exact thing that i do for clients now, but only in-house...which means project for project, an in-house employee makes about 3x less than i do and has a hella lot less respect from clients...but this is what i am applying for. why?? well...at the end of a year, that in-house worker and i end up making about the same amount...but mine looks so much better cuz sometimes i'll just have a bunch of clients for months in a row and i seriously am rolling naked in the dough. but then...there is ALWAYS the drought. and man, i am starving then. i used to look at my minimalist apartment and the art on the walls and think to myself, 'hey blondie has food in his fridge' and i trek my skinny arse over the 2 blocks to his house...fully seeing stars cuz i am in starvation mode...and then cook with him and eat enough for 2 men...always amazing blondie...hehe. but anyhoo...the low-end job...this is what i am applying for.
and i might have blown it cuz i didn't change that line in my CV.
damn...i don't want the VP to get scared off cuz he thinks i'm looking for a high end consulting job (i.e. a VP position), when really all i want is a specialist/worker bee job.
but i can't really email him back and say...ummm mr. vp? i uh didn't edit my CV very well before i sent it to you, so disregard the first one and just read this one updated especially for the worker bee job with your company, ok? best regards, jenn
shit...
and he hasn't emailed me back yet or called me so all that's left for me to do is
1)kick myself 2)pray that he misses that part 3)pray that he seriously thinks about a VP position for me, hahaha 4)just wait for him to call so that i can clarify the position i am contacting him about.
damn...oh well. i guess another thing i need to do is just keep whoring myself out for indie work...
sigh...
Playing now:
Castaways and Cutouts -- The Decemberists
posted by Jenn at 10:38:00 AM
5 Comments:
just wanted to show you some love an post a comment. i have total faith that things will work out. just keep being you, and you'll be fine. :-)
could be the intrigue that puts you over the top.
d-oh
that sucks dude!
seconded by my neighbour who is currently lying on my floor.
sass: dude give the neighbor a seat...dont make them lie on your floor
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