Hard
This is a hard time to be doing pxxi.
It's just so normal to wish all of your friends a merry xmas and happy holidays...but i haven't gotten that xmas wish from blondie, and i won't send him one.
I am choking back tears and trying not to be sad about this. I know that he's moved on...so i gotta do the same. I just can't believe we're not even friends anymore. I guess we never really were. I think he just said 'let's stay friends' just to soften the blow.
I'm gonna do this tho. I HAVE been doing this. I've made it thru day 3 of not contacting him. And this is a hella tough day. My breakup buddies have been such a big help too. I'm so glad I didn't have to go thru this alone.
Gotta become that cold azz bitch now cuz it's all about moving on and starting over.
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays everyone!!
Playing now: (I need a 'moving on' playlist...I'll get one together soon)
Let's Get Lost -- Elliott Smith
Seductive Barry -- Pulp
Today -- Smashing Pumpkins
It's just so normal to wish all of your friends a merry xmas and happy holidays...but i haven't gotten that xmas wish from blondie, and i won't send him one.
I am choking back tears and trying not to be sad about this. I know that he's moved on...so i gotta do the same. I just can't believe we're not even friends anymore. I guess we never really were. I think he just said 'let's stay friends' just to soften the blow.
I'm gonna do this tho. I HAVE been doing this. I've made it thru day 3 of not contacting him. And this is a hella tough day. My breakup buddies have been such a big help too. I'm so glad I didn't have to go thru this alone.
Gotta become that cold azz bitch now cuz it's all about moving on and starting over.
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays everyone!!
Playing now: (I need a 'moving on' playlist...I'll get one together soon)
Let's Get Lost -- Elliott Smith
Seductive Barry -- Pulp
Today -- Smashing Pumpkins
posted by Jenn at 8:46:00 PM
11 Comments:
be strong be strong be strong!!
you've come this far, you were doing well, you ARE doing well
show him what he's missing
:)
yeah, i'm not gonna contact him.
i was just thinking over our life together...had some revelations. i'm definitely not gonna put myself in a postion to be rejected by him again. done with that...
i dont care if i talk to him again...maybe its just an angry phase, but i've had enough rejection from him.
bah...shitty mood...useless post. but i felt like i wanted to write that. this blog is my dumping place. and at least i'm getting thru this.
thx nic
hey z...ehhhh...mine ended about 3 months ago too...and he was also my best friend...we tried the 'just friends' thing, but it's definitely not working with us (i've done it before successfully...but i must admit, each time then i was the dumper, not the dumpee)
so glad you happened upon the blog...i think the more people helping each other out thru their breakup, the better.
you stay strong too...congrats on your progress so far.
merry xmas
p.s. moving on playlists make you think of them MORE because you think of them whenever you PLAY the playlist...
just food for thought (btw i always make them haha)
nic i see your point, but i totally want to do a playlist with all of the groups/songs i love that blondie thought were lame. he's such a fucking punk snob! and i'm an indie babe...so he can go fuck himself.
so i want a playlist with dcfc, the postal service, sonic youth, bjork, pinback, alanis, the stills, bloc party, beat happening, braid, even barenaked ladies (hahaha)...maybe an orgy song...i dunno...songs for me...songs that DONT remind me of him. lighter music (as per the above list)...fuck him...i'm so done with him. not sure what's up with the hating, but fuck him...i just want music that reminds me of me...fuck him.
aww that a girl :)
bring back the you that makes you
props to you, jenn for putting all of this out there so honestly--i really respect that. thanks so much for your blog. you may not see it, but it's loaded with hope. (and lots of us need that during the holidays!) merry, happy...
You hang in there, babe...and have a great Christmas! One of us has to, anyway.... ;)
thanks caro. hope? hmmmm...that's good. i'm trying to build something better. which, considering how amazing blondie was, feels really hard. but this time it's about me and not him. sigh...very, very hard. thanks so much for stopping by and for your kind words.
x...so good to see you again! sweetie, i hope your christmas is better than you expect. you gotta know how much we all love you and want the best for you. if anyone deserves the best, you totally do. keep your chin up, yo. *HUGS*
it'll get better - call friends and catch up :)
hope for yourself. you're definitely making progress. that's what i mean...happy holidays!
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