1/26/2006

Stop the Madness!!

if i am truly over it...why am i feeling dissed over apparently either being blocked or him not logging onto his IM like he has done for years after work?

i guess it's a possibility that he has been busy for the last two nites and just has not been on the computer...but the odds of that are LOW!

aaarrrgh!!!

so whatever. oh my gosh, whatever!

........................

so i guess one thing that is kinda exciting me is that i'm in a time of flux. i have many decisions to make. and i need to not blow any of them. as of about an hour ago, i may be able to hit up the president of the company who is sending me to maine to send me instead to my dream spot (even more than chicago, i think...i dunno) seattle. they have been looking to expand that office, and i would be willing to work in an office if they would send me there.

so many decisions. so few real answers. my life is not mine right now...i'm so at the whim of prospective employers and others. i have to somehow keep an after-hours indie $$$$$$-maker, but if i'm getting job offers, i really gotta at least consider them at this point. i'm not gonna get new furniture into a new apartment by begging blondie to bring my shit out of canada the way he took it in, that's for goddam sure.

gawd i'm sick of wanting to fucking HURL everytime i think of this shite...

3 Comments:

Blogger PinkBunny said...

Don't hurl, Jenn! It's just a temporary case of insecurity. It must be tough (but exciting?) having all these life choices to make.

There are lots of paths to take forward; there is no need to look back.
(PinkBunny fortune cookie)

1/27/2006 01:09:00 AM  
Blogger Jenn said...

pb: thanks...i actually LIKE that fortune ;)

1/27/2006 06:32:00 AM  
Blogger Jenn said...

oh man, how quickly you forget ;)

still hanging onto the spruce and evergreen pines...making a terrible mess since they are soooo dead, but still smell good. the stuffed animal is my constant companion. thx

xoxoxo

1/27/2006 01:17:00 PM  

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